nick dont leave!!!

so its been a while since i last wrote.

im here in taft waiting for my ride to come pick me up.

heres a list of ten things i hate the most.

1. when someones late, i hate waiting

2. when im late, i hate making people wait

3.t.r.a.f.f.i.c  gotta live with it tho

4. my new car, its too big.

5.my bills to pay, i didnt know i spent that much in a month.

6. my drunk self, but it happens every time i go out

7. my self when im hungry, i get so edgy

8. my self when i procrastinate

9. my habbits, shopping perse

10. i sleep so much, my friends call me a cub, they think im some sort of a lil bear, haha

there's so much more but thats it for now.

peace out

okay its 6 in the morning sunday.

what the hell am i doing writing?? im exhausted from all the partying its seriously getting to me, im listening to billy jean. im so mad, i actually went to my saturday class for the first time today, and it got fucking cancelled. i think i need to take anger management classes. i get mad so easily and i trip out on anything and everything. this sucks. i dont even know what the fuck is going on in my freaggin life anymore. im so stressed with school and nothing going right. but hey, like my yaya always tells me, as long as your as alive, there's still hope, right?

im out, peace

Johnapalooza!!!!!!!!!

damn that party always manages to get me fucked.

i hated patrick for giving pizza with hash in it..i found out that there was hash in it only after i finished everything.

anyways,had a bit of drama last night and i realized how ive been at the same place. not a good idea. i told my self so many times that i should let go.

but now,  really, im letting go...

Fianlly, im over it, im over the fact that i wrote a fucking long ass blog and stupid xanga acted up and deleted everything. i was scared to write for a couple weeks now after that incident.. i finally finished finals and now im on vacation, till like the 12th of september i think... hmm, im getting bored of my life. its the same old shit over and over again... ive been boxing lately, and its so much fun,, im dropping mad pounds, ( i think).. im thinking of giving my hair a new twist.. im bored of my hair,.

oh, maryann left a couple days ago.. i didnt wanna ball my eyes out, but i ended crying any ways, it really sucks that people have to leave. one thing i hate about manila is that people come and go so easily..i like the people coming part,, but i hate the people leaving part.. its hard for the one's being left behind...thats one less person i can pour my heart out to when i feel like shit.. lesser and lesser people i can talk to these days..

organizing idea's isnt really my forte, so dont trip if i talk about different things every minute.. boxing is fun, it brings out the inner violence in me.. or actually not even "inner" coz i think im pretty violent to begin with... i got my fortune read in this birthday book one time, and it said that im volatile.. i stilll beg to disagree.. but yeah, the people who actually know me, they say that im hella volatile... haha

gotta hit the beach soon, when monsoon is over,, cant wait,,

im out

confused....